my boyfriend is doing it again. he hasn’t answered my texts since Monday morning when I was going to bed. I can’t believe he is doing this to me yet again. we just went through this, and it hurt and it hurts now. idk wtf his problem is. I used to think we could get through anything and we would make it but now I am thinking we are dying out… idk what I am going to do anymore…he was my everything and i feel like he could give two shits about me. apparently its easy leaving me alone, its easy ignoring me, it’s easy to just break me. wtf happened to my loving bf? where is he? I want him back. Don’t i deserve to be happy?
Friday May 5 @ 12:12am
I truly am a mess. I need to vent. it’s been a week since the last time I spoke to my boyfriend. he wont answer me. and we were on great terms the last time we spoke. he just wont answer me any more and I don’t know why, and I really have considered ending it but its not like I can with him not talking to me. the thing is I cant get myself to do that. I am in love with him and I want to know why this is happening, I need to talk to him I just have to. I cant just walk away, I’ve always loved him and i don’t want to give up on him but it hurts so bad. its hard to think he loves me when he is doing this to me. I cant understand what could have happened, why he would leave me alone like this, I cant help thinking the worst of things… but despite all my anger and all my pain, I don’t want this to be over. And I probably sound like the stupidest person ever but I cant help myself. I mean it may have nothing to do with me, sometimes he wont talk to me when he is in one of his moods, but its never lasted this long, if he lived in NJ I would have gone to his house by now and confronted him but he lives in PA and I have to drive 2 & 1/2 hours to get there. but I am going. I am going to confront him whether he likes it or not I will get an answer and then I will know if this relationship is going any further, and even though I sound pathetic it will be up to him, if he says he loves me and will do everything he can to work on his issues for himself and for us, I will be there for him, I have been there for him since 8th grade and I wont stop now. even if we broke up I would want to stay friends, he is my best friend, he has always been there to listen to me rant, or encourage me when I am down and be a trooper when i act like a nutcase, he’s loved me since we met and i cant believe that he is over me. god i miss him so much ;_; I just want things to go back to the way they were, happy and loving. I want my Pooh Bear
Tuesday May 5 @ 01:17am
gunna dye my hair today. red with blonde underneath i miss having multiple colors… i hope it goes well!!!
Tuesday Aug 8 @ 06:54pm
haha gina is funny